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Devil

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“This is what I’m doing. So I’m going to do it because when it’s done, it’s done.”

The title is only Devil as I no intent on speaking of the Devil in the form of the ego at this moment. My process “said” de-evolution to which I thought Devo-lution so this title fit best imo. The reason de-evolution popped in to my cellular brain phone is to be explored today…

What type of evolution am I even talking about to move back from? Honestly, I am in a place where I see it all sitting side-by-side, hand in hand, if anything is going elsewhere it is how I view the world.

The non-conflict that I find myself in, is one of what to do?

I enjoy writing, helping people, living, traveling, etc. But that’s It. That’s all that life is. It isn’t about accomplishments though that is a part of It. It isn’t about relationships though that is also a part of It. It is about all of It. About the holistic system, in the body, the community, the countries, the world, the Universe. It is all Sacred.

So feeling strongly about this, can see how it all fits together in that way (mind you I am not saying I see, know all, I just reached a place where it isn’t just an intellectual process to write this, I am relaying an experience as best as I can). As It all fits together, what should I do. I can do anything. What do I want to do? Many things…

And that is where the de- part of this equation fits. We have evolved into doing everything that others say while not listening to what it is inside, what it is that we want.

I grew up hearing: get a career, retire, save for rainy days, be afraid, what if, there is only one way, you can’t be who you are, etc. la la la

And I bought hard into it and was miserable.

Tons of things that I had been told and tried to mold myself into, which wasn’t what was going on inside of me but really pissed that part off.  All these things don’t matter it is all a part of the grand Divine Comedy, the Universe, God, the Middle Way, more words for describing It on this level of conscious experience.

War, not great, but it’s still going to go down, so why worry?  Natural disasters, waste of time to worry or fear, if they happen, they happen.  Death, Yogananda called it the only Holiday we all experience, so for sure we should celebrate it.  Being alone, we only fear it because we have been told a lie that we are not enough as we are so we look into others to be that which fills us, when really others are just reflections.  Bad childhood, everyone is scarred in childhood and parents love as much as they can, that’s how it is.

Desires, feelings, thoughts, they all come and go in each New moment, New Now. So walk through what you do, as you do, engaged and both detached b/c whatever it is that you’re doing is It. And It is all there is.

One giant mirror. One grand reflection. With cracks in the glass, smudges here and there, and beauty throughout it all. That’s It. That’s life.

I spent so many years escaping into extremes when I knew all along I desired balance. And balance is Light and Dark, Good and Evil, Love and Fear. It’s feeling it All, allowing the expression as it Flows through you, and yeah. Bam!

Cause when It’s done, It’s done.  Great wisdom that.  Thx Tune.

Relating to the Flow Consciousness and Awareness

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I’ve been having this interesting experience recently in that I am increasingly more aware of the levels of consciousness in each choice I make, each experience I am having as it plays out. For simple purposes, I will put Love/Peace on one side of the scale and Fear on the other as I would argue they are the extreme opposites.

The fact that one possibility has the potential to manifest in life leaves it open for an infinite amount of possibilities to be put on the table and viable in coming into fruition. The reason I am writing this blog is because in my work with people, I have seen the Higher Self aligned with Love/Peace (and its homies, Gratitude, Hope) and the Lower Self aligned with Fear (and its cousins of anger and hate) pop up simultaneously in people. It’s as though I myself am in a place where I am being given a choice on which side to acknowledge within a person. It is cool in a sense, in that by sitting in my awareness, allowing myself to vibe Peace, I can interact within that energy in another being or experience as it plays out.

I was always sensitive to the energy of others and what I have noticed is that I can now see it on different levels. This particular experience is quite new, beautiful in that the expansion of consciousness is endless, yet it is alarming when it occurs. I am striving to live a loving and compassionate life so it is not challenging there, more so, it’s amazing how powerful our attention to different elements of the human experience can be, down to what we observe in others, our mirrors. In turn, it is even more amazing how we can choose to pay attention to which part of consciousness to experience. A friend recently shared with me regarding his studies on Buddhist meditation, that there are arguments that the ear can pick up a range of different levels of sound depending on the consciousness the listener is sitting in.

An example of this happened to me last week and again the other night. I have been subject to some dark energy. I realize that I have been paying attention to it and as soon as I decided to make a comedy out of it, the fear dissolved. I also have seen that my experiences are giving me information that I can in turn pass on to my clients because I can better relate to what they are experiencing, I can feel it, so no fear, no regrets to walk through it, though it was very dark, and very real on multiple occasions…

I was at work and a demonic looking dude with haunting red eyes and an evil smile rolled in to my space and stayed there until I laughed and had to raise my voice for him to leave. A few days later, I ran into this being who looked at me with the same eyes, same smile and told me that we can all be monsters to which again, I could only laugh. A friend was with me and didn’t hear that part which astounded me. My friend would later say he felt that the dude was speaking in tongues…

In the book Flow, the experience of the Flow consciousness is outlined. It details how the Flow can be arranged into an ordered set of pieces of information. I would expand on this idea and add that we can be subject to the Flow in all ways. Life can be seemingly random or chaotic, we can be creators or victims, feel love or feel fear. Most times we are at the whim of external things and slave to our thoughts. BUT we can choose to engage the process and Be the Flow, in turn watch it, feel the guidance out there in response to the questions we offer (even each thought gets an answer, entirely another blog, area of exploration), and eventually guide the process, which is staying within the Flow Consciousness.

If I had to sum this thought experiment up: Life is a product of where we put our attention. Place awareness towards seeing the love, the opportunity for growth, and the Flow can be quite enjoyable.

If all else fails, re-write the script so that life is more of a comedy rather than a tragedy or in my case recently, a comedy in place of a thriller!

Teachers, Mirrors, Energy

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Each day, I look at the world around me and see teachers everywhere, mirrors in people, speaking to me on a conscious and unconscious energetic level.

My teacher, who calls me her teacher, Adya, told me recently that I had eight energies, eight personalities, which spawned the eight limbs poem. It’s interesting for me to study energy and how it unfolds in people. I used to psycho-analyze people with my best friend and was always able to come up with answers. I didn’t know why but it flowed.

I realize now that I was an open channel without direction, which in a twist of fate is a direction in and of itself.  In Latin, the term gratia means many a thing.  Of note, I enjoy “gratitude, service, and in the grace of” for I have a whole lot of that in feeling towards the world around me.  As challenging as life can be, as much as something may not make sense, I am being forged by the Divine Light into the being my Soul planned long ago, and I feel my purpose, flowing through my veins.

So today, I thank the world for the daily lessons, the reminders in the forms of hugs, nudges, and slaps to the head when they come.  Because the energy is Flowing, it’s flowing to mass awakening and I am so humbled to be witness to this, in this body, at this edition of the Now.  I am humbled to share this with each and every mirror.