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Last Letters: The Out-takes

Following up the serious tone of this essay on Death and this Last Letter to my Children, I had to inject humor into the book(It’ll Be Okay… Healing Amidst Living, Loving, and Dying, yada, etc. blah blah blah). I’d like to think there was humor all throughout most of it but eh, I can think all I want you know?

If you read here, then you’ll see that I was creating something along the way/there being a point to it all. And little did I know the CDC would issue a Zombie Apocalypse Protocol and the Preachers would preach about the End of Times so I suppose it was fitting I wrote these Last Letters. See, really am Psychic! (But so are you!)

Check back for more Letters and some Op-Eds that I wrote to the NY Times, San Francisco Chronicle, and Chicago Sun Tribune. I’ll have some Op-Ed out-takes as well I’m sure.

Anyhow, here’s some of my Last Letters that didn’t make the cut, hence The Out-takes:

Letters To Some Famous People:

President Barack Obama:

To my fellow Keiki o ka Aina, I lived in the same building as you. It tripped me out. It inspired me in many ways. I say keep going and doing what you gotta do. I don’t think McCain would have done a much better job. I believe all of you in that post are doing the best you can. Even Bush. We’re lucky we are free to play armchair President. Even those of us people who aren’t American. What a life, eh? I wrote this book for many reasons but in part because I agree with you: “I believe that we can be better.”

Lil Wayne:

You’re brilliant. I hope this book drives up sales although you’re pretty huge so my free advertisements might not be helping much. But I can hope to help. I admire your creativity and flow. Keep it going Weezy Wee! If I’m still alive and you read this, please let me write a rhyme for you. Shoots!

Grace Park:

I have had a crush on you ever since you were Boomer in Battlestar Galactica. I told myself I would talk to you and not treat you like a celebrity if I ever ran into you at Whole Foods in Kahala. I had this whole idea how I would break the ice by discussing how great a job you did playing Boomer. It was a challenging role they gave you, not to mention some of the things your character had to go through. I thought you did a great job. So anyway, the day came, I saw you, and I chickened out. Oh well…

Kate Plus Eight:

Your husband wasn’t too cool in the end but you stomped on the poor guy. That video of you yelling at your kids to drink the water was kind of rough too. I feel a lot of compassion for you. Life is just crazy and I can’t imagine what your soul wanted in this incarnation. It’d be interesting to read your cards. I wish the best to your kids and hope that they get all the support they need as being in the spotlight from that early on has been rough on other kids.

BJ Penn:

Run for Governor of Hawaii. I guaranteed you’d win and the politicians would respect you because in real life you would beat their asses. They have to enact a law where the Governor could apply a Rear Naked Choke (RNC) to a bad bill or something. IDK. It’d be entertaining. Or you could RNC some of the Hawaii Reps or Sens. There’s a bunch that deserve it I imagine. Just ask their constituents.

Tito Ortiz:

You talk a lot of shit but you’re about your business and I was always pulling for you to make a comeback. Call me old school, I first started Muay Thai around the time you fought Shamrock and that sold me on MMA as the most awesome sport ever. Good luck guy!

Will Smith:

You were like my TV big brother. I felt like I learned a lot of life lessons from you and it was cool to see you move into movies. Thanks for being that big brother that I could pop into the DVD player when I got older and needed some advice.

Charlie Sheen:

See someone to help with your awakening. I argued that you were waking up and it scared away an opportunity for me to get interviewed for some of my work that I did in the area of mystical experiences (you owe me). I clearly feel like you’re having some very clear mystical experiences but don’t know how to deal with it. But eh, don’t listen if you don’t want to. You seem to have it under control. And you have a machete so you’re good to go.

Zach Galifanakis:

You crack me up. Your video to that one song where you are on the tractor which was a Kanye track (I think) was pretty awesome. I hope you keep doing your two ferns thing for years to come because laughter is such a great part of life. Note: my friend Bryce wants to be in movies. He could play your brother in something. Plus according to him, his beard is more awesome.

President George W. Bush:

You’re like the Uncle I’d want to drink a beer with. And I don’t really drink much, if at all these days. And if I do it’s wine. I like beer, just doesn’t agree with me. I get what we call in Hawaii the Asian glow and turn all red. Anyway, thanks for your sense of humor man. You seemed to take stuff really in stride. Hope retirement is better than the Presidency was. I tried to write a piece for some website about how you had some similarities to Leonidas around the time The 300 came out. It didn’t do too well. I think that’s the reason people didn’t vote for it which is funny because as much shit as people talk you got re-elected. Anyway, good luck to you, Sir, I think you did the best you could.

Oprah:

Doesn’t look like I made it on your show. It’s your last year anyway. Oh well. Keep on doing what you’re doing. I will be honest, I used to think a lot of people were brainwashed by you but I put down the Haterade because you do some great things for the world so if it means drinking the O Network Kool Aid in order to do great things in the world, sign me up. Congrats to you and all you accomplished. I hope more women can be as empowered and amazing as you are!

The Jersey Shore:

I have only seen a handful of episodes of your show because if you read this, you know I haven’t had much cable. What to say to you all? Well, I imagine you, like the rest of us are trying to make the most out of your lives and trying to put the pieces together. I hope some day you don’t feel like you have to sell yourselves or act out unless that’s really in your hearts. I kind of doubt it but the douchebaggery is possible for any and all of us so cool. Take care of your ladies and no more getting beat downs.

His Holiness the Dalai Lama:

You’re pretty awesome. I heard the coolest story of how some guy named Israel met you at the White House and he wasn’t the official greeter because Condoleeza was. He was slightly scared he’d get in trouble but you were so nice he didn’t want to peace out right away. It cracked me up because he said you introduced yourself and he followed it up with Israel because that was his name. It just painted a funny picture in my mind, the Dalai Lama and Israel. Anyway, thanks for being such a down being and so open. You rock!

Jack Black:

One of my best friends reminds me of you. His name is Tai and he plays music. I wrote the perfect movie for you. It wouldn’t have won you an Oscar or anything but it would have been cool and probably would have made us some scrilla. Tai and I tried your all food groups McDonald’s sandwich back in the day. Wasn’t too great… Whatever though, keep (bleeping) it gently!

Explosion

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I feel it building, erupting, no it’s not erupting
No, not yet, but it builds, it expands, it’s like,
It’s like an itch that you just can’t scratch
It’s like I only got to put the bucket of water down,
Down for but a hot minute
And then it’s back to the hot mess,
The hot mess of the ever-swirling, ever-changing
Expansiveness, the energy, the energetic vortex.
I feel it, I feel it all around me. I feel everyone at

Once.
I feel Nothing. Hear only a voice.

A voice: I am That.

Cool. Awesome.That’s great…

This hot soup I’m swimming in
Is bubbling, boiling over.
I’m ready to explode.
To blow up.
Ha. To blow up.
When I think that I think
Expansion.
Yea.
Something.
Back to the Grind.
The Fantastic Voyage is to Hustle Hard.
I needn’t fret.
I needn’t worry.
I am calm Rage.
I am calm about Sweet Death.
It’s Love anyway.
Just Love.
That is all I am anyway.

The Rate @ Which You Flow

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“There is no too fast. There is no too slow. There is only what is and that is the rate at which you Flow.” ~ Delta

I used to think I had to be over there, back there, up there, down there, everywhere but here. I thought that I had speed things up to get to some point in time and felt like the Rabbit in Alice and Wonderland, like I was late for a very important date, that I had an appointment to keep.

I think I get what that appointment is. It might sound simple. It is intellectually something that can be grasped but to understand, it can only be felt. It is what Eckhart Tolle wrote about with his first book, The Power of Now, and what countless other philosophies, teachers, religions, etc. have tried to explain in more words. It is the Tao, it is the Christ within, it is the Buddha Consciousness, it is all things and no-things. It is the moment as it just is, realizing that this is where I am, nothing before matters, nothing that is coming matters, I can never know, I just have to be where it is that I am, trust the feelings, listen closely to the subtle prompts and yeah, keep walking, because every moment I am present, I am Now on time.

(At least on this place plane since only here do we experience time.)

Throw your Black Flag up, for it is Black, Black is the Dark Night of the Soul’s Light!

Devil

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“This is what I’m doing. So I’m going to do it because when it’s done, it’s done.”

The title is only Devil as I no intent on speaking of the Devil in the form of the ego at this moment. My process “said” de-evolution to which I thought Devo-lution so this title fit best imo. The reason de-evolution popped in to my cellular brain phone is to be explored today…

What type of evolution am I even talking about to move back from? Honestly, I am in a place where I see it all sitting side-by-side, hand in hand, if anything is going elsewhere it is how I view the world.

The non-conflict that I find myself in, is one of what to do?

I enjoy writing, helping people, living, traveling, etc. But that’s It. That’s all that life is. It isn’t about accomplishments though that is a part of It. It isn’t about relationships though that is also a part of It. It is about all of It. About the holistic system, in the body, the community, the countries, the world, the Universe. It is all Sacred.

So feeling strongly about this, can see how it all fits together in that way (mind you I am not saying I see, know all, I just reached a place where it isn’t just an intellectual process to write this, I am relaying an experience as best as I can). As It all fits together, what should I do. I can do anything. What do I want to do? Many things…

And that is where the de- part of this equation fits. We have evolved into doing everything that others say while not listening to what it is inside, what it is that we want.

I grew up hearing: get a career, retire, save for rainy days, be afraid, what if, there is only one way, you can’t be who you are, etc. la la la

And I bought hard into it and was miserable.

Tons of things that I had been told and tried to mold myself into, which wasn’t what was going on inside of me but really pissed that part off. All these things don’t matter it is all a part of the grand Divine Comedy, the Universe, God, the Middle Way, more words for describing It on this level of conscious experience.

War, not great, but it’s still going to go down, so why worry? Natural disasters, waste of time to worry or fear, if they happen, they happen. Death, Yogananda called it the only Holiday we all experience, so for sure we should celebrate it. Being alone, we only fear it because we have been told a lie that we are not enough as we are so we look into others to be that which fills us, when really others are just reflections. Bad childhood, everyone is scarred in childhood and parents love as much as they can, that’s how it is.

Desires, feelings, thoughts, they all come and go in each New moment, New Now. So walk through what you do, as you do, engaged and both detached b/c whatever it is that you’re doing is It. And It is all there is.

One giant mirror. One grand reflection. With cracks in the glass, smudges here and there, and beauty throughout it all. That’s It. That’s life.

I spent so many years escaping into extremes when I knew all along I desired balance. And balance is Light and Dark, Good and Evil, Love and Fear. It’s feeling it All, allowing the expression as it Flows through you, and yeah. Bam!

Cause when It’s done, It’s done. Great wisdom that. Thx Tune.

Thoughts of Flow-cus

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I was hit up with the woo-pow, who got you Now, yesterday. Last year, I’d a dream that I was to write two books. Well, seven months later…

I hung out with Adya the other day. She’s about to go under the knife and she was straight up about wondering if she’ll return since they are putting her under. I felt something very different from this woman, who’ve I only known 5 months but feel like I’ve known since my soul began. For the first time, I felt like there was a sense of fear.

As much as we are souls, we are still subject to all things on this plane. To see this magnificent woman, my teacher, my friend, my student, be so open, calm, yet still vibrate the feeling I’ve known all too well at times, I felt my own vibration grow, to share the strength I’ve found because of her unconditional love, support, and encouragement. I found the roles reversed…

So as I awoke yesterday, I was hit with more purpose than I ever felt. A purpose I had not yet found within myself. I will finish the book, the book that has been gnawing at me since small kid time, the book that I’ve fought and crawled in order to walk, the book that has given me wings, that has allowed me to be whole.

The book with a message that I’d always felt yet lacked the words, lacked the experience, until now.

A Call to Love is a part of it. It will be continued as I have much done on it but I realize the poem that is to complement it. I realize the philosophy that is because of it. And I thank all the parties involved in helping me write it.

For it was answering a call to love, continuing to choose love, that I found any peace. It was through this 9 mos. odyssey of following dreams that I found my love within and it is through love that I am okay.

Hello World! I bring to you The Maxims of Delta as they were always meant to be…

Draw the Line

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Long ago, well not really I suppose as it’s been but a few years, my mentor at the time, informed me that I had to be aware of what I did with my abilities, so I took it as holding back. The other day, I met a healer who told me to stand strong in the beautiful creation that I am and keep my spine straight. The next day, I would guide the Soul Samurai on a walking meditation which he would later tell me was life-changing.

As I walk each day, more fully than the last, in the depth of my Soul, allowing my existence to permeate with what lays inside, I find that I encounter situations which still call for a response, a strong response on my part. Where I would once hold back for fear of what someone would think, I now speak from the heart for I know there is an experience in it worth flowing with.

I do not profess to be awakened or enlightened. I will acknowledge that I have experienced in rapid succession an ever increasing awareness and presence. It is really quite beautiful beyond words. I find myself fascinated by the smallest of details and sounds and people.

The smallest recently being a young boy who came in last night, with the curiosity and care that only children have not forgotten.

“How did you learn this?”

“Doesn’t each card mean something?’

I donated the reading to him though his mother was yelling at him not to come in. A ritual in a sense of honoring my own wounded inner child, allowing it to breathe and see its reflection.

“How much do you make?”

I donate my time, my friend outside of here. It was my dream to help others in a way that resonated with me. I took a serious tone as the lad was quite serious himself. Truly a reflection of me, gentle, curious, yet with a depth and seriousness that the average eye would look over.

He shuffled the deck. Tarot cards are larger than the average cards and he juggled the giant cards in his small hands.

“I don’t know how to shuffle.”

There is no right or wrong way my friend. He put the deck down and I instructed him to pull five cards. When I read cards, it gives an instant peek, otherwise, I have to touch the person or talk to them in order to see or hear what is going on as I find it invasive to just jump right in.

I told him what I saw: his soul came here to experience and I reminded him that he was here to fly. I said to my little friend to be who he was, stand true in that and don’t let anyone else tell him otherwise, don’t let anyone tell him that he couldn’t be who he wanted to be.

The boy had a giant heart and his spirit was a powerful one. He looked at me, the serious brow acknowledging.

“That’s funny. People already try to tell me who to be or don’t do that. They tell me that’s impossible. I just don’t believe them.”

I laughed and high-fived my young friend and he left. I made a post recounting the experience on Facebook as I found it to be truly inspirational.

Today someone made a silly comment and this roused not a defensiveness but a place where I had to the draw the line. He had been making silly jokes for some time and I just let it slide. But this struck a chord.

I responded with honesty, called a spade for a spade in that I felt his mask was creating this facade of humor to hide his own gentleness, his own true inner beauty. I spoke from my heart and I felt it open as I could see where he was coming from, I have spent many days living the same.

Growing up, I was told, you’re too sensitive. You’re too idealistic. By family members. By friends. I sought and fought for approval for so long. Then I drove them away when I couldn’t find it. To make my peace, I wore many masks over the years.

At the end of my comment, I offered to help the man as I know his pain. It is the pain that all of us feel as incomplete beings. Women are not allowed to be fully masculine and feminine. And men aren’t afforded the same. Socialization has cut us off from the wholeness of who we are.

This is who I am. I am a psychic. I am intuitive. I am sensitive. I am a feeler. I am a healer. I am a writer. I am masculine. I am feminine. I am harsh. I am intense. I am loving. I am passionate. I am cold. I am honest, brutally. And one day I’ll be a father and a host of other things as it is also a part of who I am.

I am all things and no-thing for I am an energetic being and I know that I can choose to be happy with who I am, how I am, at each moment in time.

My heart opens. We should all be like the young boy. The boy who didn’t believe the un-truths that others say. Who doesn’t let people bully him out of who he is.

That in my opinion, is strength. That boy. Two children now have changed my life in ways I will never forget. A young girl and her smile when I was amidst anger 11 years ago and my little friend, both reflections of me.

Thank you for such an awesome experience filled with more opportunities to expand each day.

Ruthless Compassion

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I was cruising with Adya, my former teacher/always going to be my teacher/friend(which is probably more all-encompassing) and she shared with me why she wears black. In the order that she belongs to, black is a symbol of Ruthless Compassion.

I first heard of this expression in 2007. It was a crazy tale of standing up on a post with a dagger dangling between a naked someone’s legs. That was an extreme ritual of focus but long story short, the concept is not meant to be viewed as just being a happy, happy, happy, joy, joy kind of deal. It’s more in line with practicing loving-kindness, forgiving others, but in a way that allows for true growth. It’s a looking out for oneself and for others from a best interest for all in involved kind of deal. And that can involve saying some things that other people don’t want to hear because not doing so could be enabling something destructive.

I had an experience with this today (I think, I’m still piecing it together). A gentlemen came by and I could feel his angst, see the different levels of emotion fluctuate, hear the different voices keeping him from peace, in a sense, felt that he lost hope, felt his struggle.

I felt guided from within to speak to him and he was kind of a dick about it. I wasn’t trying to solicit, I just follow and go with guidance. So I sat down and spoke my from my heart, rather than avoid, and it opened the conversation further. From there, I felt like we connected and were able to converse.

Ultimately, I know that I am peace as an energy and can experience that so it doesn’t bother me. I share here because it’s like Yogananda said “Change yourself. That’s enough.” I agree and I feel good in that I won’t lay down and get pummeled by people because of their projections onto what a word means. And the flipside of that, even more so am I committed to finding a way in which to communicate more effectively so that I can find the common ground, the peace, that I believe exists between different parties, regardless of background. And be conscious of my own projections onto situations…

I say it all the time, life in its simplest form is energy and that can be felt. Those feelings in turn can help us to see we are one rather than so spread apart b/c of views. Shoot, I hope I keep changing, expanding, growing, seeing, and thinking in different ways. If I am not, it means I’m done.

LOL, LOL, LOL. I look back at the last four years of writing and I see that life was giving me lots of doses of Ruthless Compassion so that I would keep growing and not think it was quick and easy.

And with that, there lies another thought experiment, putting words to feelings in order to better realize what is going on.

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Relating to the Flow Consciousness and Awareness

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I’ve been having this interesting experience recently in that I am increasingly more aware of the levels of consciousness in each choice I make, each experience I am having as it plays out. For simple purposes, I will put Love/Peace on one side of the scale and Fear on the other as I would argue they are the extreme opposites.

The fact that one possibility has the potential to manifest in life leaves it open for an infinite amount of possibilities to be put on the table and viable in coming into fruition. The reason I am writing this blog is because in my work with people, I have seen the Higher Self aligned with Love/Peace (and its homies, Gratitude, Hope) and the Lower Self aligned with Fear (and its cousins of anger and hate) pop up simultaneously in people. It’s as though I myself am in a place where I am being given a choice on which side to acknowledge within a person. It is cool in a sense, in that by sitting in my awareness, allowing myself to vibe Peace, I can interact within that energy in another being or experience as it plays out.

I was always sensitive to the energy of others and what I have noticed is that I can now see it on different levels. This particular experience is quite new, beautiful in that the expansion of consciousness is endless, yet it is alarming when it occurs. I am striving to live a loving and compassionate life so it is not challenging there, more so, it’s amazing how powerful our attention to different elements of the human experience can be, down to what we observe in others, our mirrors. In turn, it is even more amazing how we can choose to pay attention to which part of consciousness to experience. A friend recently shared with me regarding his studies on Buddhist meditation, that there are arguments that the ear can pick up a range of different levels of sound depending on the consciousness the listener is sitting in.

An example of this happened to me last week and again the other night. I have been subject to some dark energy. I realize that I have been paying attention to it and as soon as I decided to make a comedy out of it, the fear dissolved. I also have seen that my experiences are giving me information that I can in turn pass on to my clients because I can better relate to what they are experiencing, I can feel it, so no fear, no regrets to walk through it, though it was very dark, and very real on multiple occasions…

I was at work and a demonic looking dude with haunting red eyes and an evil smile rolled in to my space and stayed there until I laughed and had to raise my voice for him to leave. A few days later, I ran into this being who looked at me with the same eyes, same smile and told me that we can all be monsters to which again, I could only laugh. A friend was with me and didn’t hear that part which astounded me. My friend would later say he felt that the dude was speaking in tongues…

In the book Flow, the experience of the Flow consciousness is outlined. It details how the Flow can be arranged into an ordered set of pieces of information. I would expand on this idea and add that we can be subject to the Flow in all ways. Life can be seemingly random or chaotic, we can be creators or victims, feel love or feel fear. Most times we are at the whim of external things and slave to our thoughts. BUT we can choose to engage the process and Be the Flow, in turn watch it, feel the guidance out there in response to the questions we offer (even each thought gets an answer, entirely another blog, area of exploration), and eventually guide the process, which is staying within the Flow Consciousness.

If I had to sum this thought experiment up: Life is a product of where we put our attention. Place awareness towards seeing the love, the opportunity for growth, and the Flow can be quite enjoyable.

If all else fails, re-write the script so that life is more of a comedy rather than a tragedy or in my case recently, a comedy in place of a thriller!

Love Over Fear

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“Choose Love over fear. When we choose Love, we are without fear, we are fearless. When we are fearless, we are One with God.”

In light of events of the world, I feel that Nature is giving us an option to choose how we are going to live. Over the years, we have created weapons out of fear to protect ourselves. Now it would seem that the same technology used to destroy is being implemented to protect. I think we are making the turn to living from a place of love, as a collective people.

I strongly believe this is necessary. When I reflect on the micro-system that is my life, every fear-based decision that I ever made did not serve myself, my loved ones, my community, the world at all. Every decision that I made from a place of love has taken me deeper and deeper into understanding myself and finding peace everywhere that I go. Yogananda said “Change yourself and that is enough.” To keep changing and finding the way to fill love throughout my being while digging deeper to see the world through all eyes and from all perspectives helps me to be better. In being a better man, I truly serve the world because I am giving it the best expression of myself.

“The greatest gift that we can give the world is the full expression of who we truly are.”