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A Time to Fly: The End of the World or To End in Peace

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As 2012 unravels, the big ball of string that is the End of the Mayan Calendar and the possible End of the World [or oooh, my favorite and the Zombie Apocalypse] will be interesting to watch.

But doesn’t it seem like we go through one of these scares or events every decade…

I was born in 1980, and from the ole Google Search, I learned that talk of Armageddon was going on back then.  I was too young to remember, shoot, I wasn’t even born when the predictions were made so I won’t expand much there but it fits with my every ten years hypothesis/thought experiment so I’m going to roll with it.

End of Times talk and fear was rampant during the End of the Cold War, I was old enough to pick up on that, I may not have understood it but I could feel that the events had gravity too them.  I remember things like the Fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989, the Protests of Tiananmen Square that same year, and then there was Desert Storm and I felt the fear, the frenzy that came from watching on television, images of the first bombs, the planes, the correspondents, this was my first conscious experience of war in this plane of existence so it stood out.  I also remember the collectible trading cards that came out during that time too.  Any way to make a buck eh?  And that seemed odd to me.

In the 90′s, I was basically emo minus the long hair, I played basketball, and I listened to rap music.  Or maybe I wasn’t emo and just a teenager…

At the time, I felt misunderstood, which after counseling/mentoring a number of teens since, I can see how I didn’t understand myself so how could I expect anyone else to relate? And I just needed something to relate to me.  And rap music did that for me. And things that made my Inner Child believe in magic but that’s another story.

The charged emotion of the beats, the sound of the voices, the feelings I felt that summed up a life I couldn’t understand in the body came out in the music, the experience.  I felt like I was relating and that’s illogical right?  Or is it?  Do not we all feel?.  They were the poets, the storytellers, the social commentators much as I find myself doing and growing into on my own path.  I think we’re all rappers, telling the stories of our lives, trying to understand the world by putting words to it. And I think that’s cool.  If you’re going to understand life, shouldn’t you strive to know about your own?

As the 90′s unfolded and were to become the millienia, it built up to Y2K, where everything was supposed to shut down, the aliens were supposed to return, and all of that.  Nobody knew what would happen.  But low and behold, we had the computer programmers working it out.  Pretty cool, huh?  They didn’t wield swords or wands but they wielded their skills and magic, saved the system from crashing and then the Geeks continued to roll out more cool things to help and connect us.  To maybe finally come together.

Psych!  Of course not, not for us, humanity, we had to find our next End of the World fix…

And when 9/11 happened, well, that really felt like it for many, especially to collective psyche of America.  I remember getting an early call, crowding into a dorm room on my floor and man, if it did not seem like this generation’s version of the Attack on Pearl Harbor.  It was shocking, unbelievable, and as the news, the reports surfaced maybe there was more that could have been done by different parties to prevent it, but regardless, the event really happened and it shook us all, all of humanity.

I’d watch as President Bush became the first President to have both the record high and low approval ratings, which is apparently becoming a trend as President Obama is experiencing the swings himself.  But well, that’s the President, it comes with the job right?  He [or she in the future] should be able to take it, run with the ball and make our lives better.  Forget that there are elements of Congress that can make or break policy but #i’mjustsayin’ and besides, we have to get back to the End of the World in 2012 [Pssh, focus JMAW]!.

Yeah, 2012!  Woo, it’s like a spiritual new age conspiracy theorist’s wet dream and man, I’ve been hearing about 2012 ever since, ever since.  You can’t help but see the books when you’re making your way through the New Age and Spiritual sections of bookstores and libraries attempting to find an answer to your spiritual crisis and learn about healing after all…  And with titles that have End of the World and End of this, that, and otherwise, how could you not browse one.  I know.  I know! I had a choice not to read them, but still Spirit, I’ve been bombarded by this propaganda forever ways sideways! and some of the people are so charismatic, their believe so sound, how could it not be worth a look?

Then I started getting the nudges, the slaps from the Universe to live in the Present, to do the spiritual work, to answering the calling.  The Spirit spoke.  I ignored and the Apocalypse, my version of it, happened a few times in many different ways, but the really big grand chaotic symphony hit me in 2010 [Every ten years, I tell you!!!].  So I prayed.  I meditated.  I had no answers but it’s the only thing that made me feel better. And I met others, who experienced their lives falling apart.  Who felt there was something else out there, there had to be.

And if there was, I was going to find it!

I went on a walkabout, a vision quest, a you-know-what-it-really-was?  I just finally answered a call.  A Call to Love.  And as I looked at the pieces of my life, the micro-system and see it reflected what was unfolding in the macro-system of this shared life around me, I saw it as an intricate system and my world would become what I focused on it. My fears certainly came true because of my energy.  So did what I loved but I was so gripped by fear.  Because Love, it was, too natural…

Too easy.  No, way too easy, that’s what I always saw anyway, that the Heart would not lie, that Love was the way, but I couldn’t have felt that, I couldn’t just say that.  No, it’s got to be this job, no, wait, it’s got to be that relationship.  Bah!

Trust your Intuition, combine it with the pieces you see from Past and Present and see how where you place your energy, Love or Fear, you get experiences that mirror.  Then step back and think how if everyone is experiencing the same thing, aren’t we co-creating this whole ride?

Accept that it’s okay to be wrong about Fear, that it’s not the only way, and let go of this fatalistic obsession of self-sabotage that doesn’t result in the gigantic end of the world but ends the things that impact us the most with our families, our communities, our jobs, our individual worlds that we walk.  I think the world can end two ways, with a Bang or with surrender to Life being, well, Life.  We’ve been banging at it for awhile, why not try the alternative?

Might lead to Peace.  Inner Peace.

 

 

A Time to Fly: Embrace the Love

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There’s some truly Dark levels of experience out there.  In no way do I doubt that.  But I address that we don’t need to linger in there or feel powerless because of it.  The Ego will trap and hold us down not because it wants to, but because the certainty of Fear and the addiction of beating ourselves up is comforting in that it is known, it is so familiar, it’s easier to allow Dark than it is to shine Light.

Love may be our birthright, but our world is set up in a way to refute it at every turn.  That’s why fighting to see the Light aspects of life and not to the let darkened lens forever dim our outlook is so important.

Life is uncertain but that does not meant that we have to hate it.

It does not mean that we must hate ourselves.

Our Souls are on a Journey and in going through the Journey, we learn more and more about who we really are.  I truly believe incorporating a spiritual view, in however it works for each of us, can help to transcend the damages live brings to the psyche.  In the beginning, that damage comes from our own willingness to love and the inability to understand the situations where we are abused.  This often roots deep in childhood and it takes lifetimes of the Soul to move beyond because after awhile, we end up accepting the abuse, the limiting beliefs that get engrained within us as our reality.  We continue to perpetuate ‘crimes’ against ourselves and the Ego’s hold becomes so strong, it finds more and more ways to tell the story of Victimhood.

I know young man, who was a client, who is convinced the world will lead to famine, despair, and war.  He nicknamed himself, Doomsday, he tells me over and over he comes from Dark, and the Light doesn’t know, and that I’ve forgotten.  He’s so locked into his story he can’t see anything but what he believes.  He’s a strong force and though he told me that I make him question some of his thoughts, his energy makes me question. And while I question, I cannot, I will not accept his accounts as reality, because his reality is not mine.  His issues are not mine.  I need not be swayed and doubt all the Love I see everywhere because someone else does not allow it.

Because that’s not Faith.

Faith is without question.  On one level are there some really atrocious things out there.  Yes.  But can we really agree on what is good and bad.  No.  Not at all because we all have vastly different views.  This young man tells me I have a “Universe is Perfect Theory.”  I don’t think in terms or perfection, I think in terms of balance and when I say things are okay, they work out, it’s because I don’t fight it so much these days.  I can only change how I feel, I cannot change another, nor can I change the events that are unfolding that are beyond my control.

We cannot prove or disprove that what happened is meant to be or supposed to.  It’s just what is.  If we spend our time and energy hating on God or a Creator or not seeing a need for Love by looking at all the negative then what the heck are we in life for it?  Even our science has shown us both sides, that we will destroy should we continue to do so and that the world is replenishing itself despite our advances to kill it.  The world, Nature, is naturally balancing, returning to a state of well-being, it’s healing despite what we do…

There’s a whole lot of hate out there.  The hippies were on to something but then their extreme didn’t add up.  I think my life has shown me different things so that I could see how important it is to be able to mediate for my own life, look at it from both sides and come to a firm place in what I belief.  Not because it’s better than anything else, but because when each of us can arrive to the middle, then we can be clear and see life as truly intricate, beyond words, and amazing as it is.

We will argue until we die and then those who come will argue even more.  We have evidence of that.  We need not curse it.  It’s all a part of the experience.  The propaganda of the the End of World has been thrown around since the dawn of time.  Sooner or later we could make that happen.  Or maybe we won’t.  For many, that already is present.  Or it happened already.

Whatever the End of the World is for each of us, it’s definitely an experience but like any great movie, you can’t predict the end or know the story until you’ve seen it all  And if sh!t hits the fan, then we have to pick up the pieces, we can’t spend our lives waiting for that, preparing for it.  I don’t care what anyone says about stocking up on canned goods, because if the end of the world as per these predictions happen, none of us will be prepared because the change that takes place will hurt us deeper than some canned goods will allow.  The hurt that will be realized is that we caused it collectively.  And that to me, that’s why I push even more to share with others that we can live healthier.

We may still be able to ‘save this world.’ I believe in that.

We may not be be able to ‘save the world’ from going on a path of destruction.  I am aware of that.

But whatever happens, it happens, so why question, what’s not yet arrived.  We cannot continue to fight life.  We don’t have to fight it.  If anything, fight for your smile, fight for your Heart to not be consumed by the Fear, the Hate, the Misery that the individual and our collective Ego is so addicted to because it is known.

We have the ability to have amazing lives regardless of our circumstance.  We need only listen, we need only let go.  We must allow.

This young man, he tells me he sees me in the future, mad about things and on some council as we rebuild.

If anything, I’m mad now.  I’m mad that we as a people forget so quickly.  That as much evidence as we have to create good things, we buy into the bullsh!t that the Fearmongers sell.  If we live our lives on the what-if’s then it’s a hollow life, an empty life, a life that will be lost all to quickly, and if we each look at our individual lives honestly, we can see how those losses piled up, not because the system is against us, but because of our own addiction to misery and being averse to the fact that Pain, that Dark, is just a part of life and it is necessary.

I might never change the world and that’s okay.

But I’m going to change myself as much as I can, I’m going to find a way to find the Love in every experience.  The young man tells me I need a reason.  I know my reason, it’s always been family.  It’s always been about healing.  I don’t need any other reason as there’s too much to process it’s just overwhelming.  But to simplify I can step back, remind myself, I’m on a Journey and to find the Love, because I promise, I guarantee, as the story unfolds, we can find it if we allow it.

So embrace what’s ours.  The only person that can do that for you is you so stop beating yourself up.  There’s no point to it.  Dark only has power if we believe it does.

 

Time to Fly: To Be Seen Clearly

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To be seen clearly and honestly by another Human while the Soul does it’s stroll through this plane of existence is a beautiful thing, particularly while weathering the Dark Night of the Soul.

Our Souls are here to live and experience life fully.  Either way we get the lesson. Listen to those who have come before as they near the closing times of their lives and share the knowledge gained their experience.  Pay close attention to what is communicated because there are keys there, the same knowledge can be found in many texts as the core of it, how Life Explained and undressed from each is really what it’s about: putting the pieces of our lives together and understanding.

Whatever we collectively choose shall take us to the place we need to be in our lives.  Whether that means standing tall and filled with love and gratitude for this miracle of life, of being, or whether that means being brought to our knees, either way, individually we get the lesson, and collectively the world will get the lesson.  We are at a crossroads in the experience of our collective consciousness and I believe the Earth, our home is vibrating in a way to show us that.

This is exciting because it means great change is upon us.  Better in my opinion to err on the side of love and excitement, be filled with joy rather than fear and horror.  Whatever our level consciousness is vibrating at, so will be our experience.

I don’t believe 2012 will be chaos.  I don’t believe the “veil parting” will mean insanity, that the mass exodus from Plato’s Cave will mean doom.  Man has been talking about the End of the World since it began.  I think it’s because we’re in a rush to get to what’s next.  Don’t worry, that will come. The Journey will take us.

I believe that we are destined to realize our choice between greatness and mediocrity.  What is it that you shall choose?  Why is it that you shall choose it?  Whatever it is, be who you are, who only you can and are meant to be.

I see the “best” sitting next to the “worst” every day, in it all because I have allowed myself to know the Light and Dark, the Good and the Bad in myself, I have accepted my Humanity needs my Spirit and that my Spirit loves my Humanity.  In not judging what unfolds, not resisting the natural Flow life gives, I am realizing more and more consciously what my Being already knows:

We are here to fly, we are not meant to crawl.

Thank you!  THX!  Hallelujah!

Black Out

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“It shouldn’t take loss, it shouldn’t take tragedy, for loving-kindness and compassion to live freely in this world.”

Last night, a tsunami hit Japan after a massive earthquake. Panic, laughter, aloofness ensued amongst the many people in Waikiki where I was working.  I felt very calm, no intuitive sense about anything only calm…

Last month, my housemate’s psychic friend was visiting here from San Francisco and he said he didn’t know what but he just kept getting power outage, something big was about to happen.  As I went through yesterday, it was a total 180, huge high in the morning from a tattoo, great time with my teacher, then an awesome reading with someone who I feel is my next teacher, followed by the tsunami blitz.  By the time I got home, my teacher/student/soul brother would ask me what I felt, said he couldn’t read it. I watched as my boss cleared out our stuff at work to be on the safe side.  I got a text from my new teacher giving me the heads up.

I awoke at 3 am and it hit me that none of the intuitives can read what is going on and all I felt was a great calm…

I have been paying great attention to signs because of the great pain I experienced as I failed to pay attention to them before in my life.  As a result, I have learned to trust my feelings over my heart, not the feelings floating in my mind.

I feel that we are we are being given signs that expansion of consciousness is taking place. The awareness dims, black out, because people are being given a choice to change or be changed as that happens. Either way, it’s just an experience and ushers us to a higher level of consciousness, there is no good, no bad, only experience.   But we are given a choice on how to get there.

If there’s one thing I will posture on in this blog it is the quote above:

“It shouldn’t take tragedy, it shouldn’t take loss for loving-kindness, compassion to live freely in this world.”

We can choose to resonate with loving-kindness and feel compassion all the time.  To love fully is a choice, to strive to relate to another, to all our brothers and sisters is a choice.  We don’t have to be forced into a place to get this.  We forget this too quickly, get back to our paper chases, and tragedy strikes the reminder.  Nature will be nature no matter what but we can co-exist in a healthier fashion.

We have to wake up and remember this because if we don’t, if we continue to take for granted the blessings all around us, we get out of sync from the present moment and bottom line, who knows what is going to happen.  Life is too short to take for granted and though the Soul is ageless, is freed of the bondage from the emotional roller coaster that comes with the human experience, it’s still a human experience and we can feel pain, sadness, suffering so long as there is breath, as long as the heart beats.

Something is happening, sit back, observe, choose to live from the voice of the Heart, because it is the surest guide, is both the map and compass for it contains Love, the greatest of energies, that leads to Peace no matter what unfolds.

And there is alot of energy swirling these days.

March is Marchin’

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I’ve been saying for some time that the energy this year feels different, like a quickening, an acceleration of some sort. Well, it’s kicked it up a notch in March…

My teacher shared a line of thought that some New Age types believe earth may change galaxies. I don’t really subscribe to that but who I am to refute the possibility of anything.

Ten years ago we hadn’t seen 9/11, re-elected George Bush, elected the first Black President of the US, the worldwide economic meltdown, and what happened in Egypt recently. Let’s not even broach the subject of Charlie Sheen…

While it’s probably unlikely, earth will pop off somewhere else, it is likely that a mass awakening of the collective consciousness to a level only touched by avatars and trained mystics is taking place as we speak.

It will be interesting to see how this unfolds. Sit back, walk through each experience one step at a time and just Flow.

Aloha nui.