I cannot write
I mean I can
but for some reason
It’s not time
So I’ll rhyme
Since it’s a rhythm
That unfolds
Or perhaps
I’ve just said
All I can say
At this time
We retired once
From commentary
Now didn’t we
Yes
I watched it
Where’d that get us?
Hmmm…
It’s okay,
Expression just is.
No right
no wrong
Just the way…
To be seen clearly and honestly by another Human while the Soul does it’s stroll through this plane of existence is a beautiful thing, particularly while weathering the Dark Night of the Soul.
Our Souls are here to live and experience life fully. Either way we get the lesson. Listen to those who have come before as they near the closing times of their lives and share the knowledge gained their experience. Pay close attention to what is communicated because there are keys there, the same knowledge can be found in many texts as the core of it, how Life Explained and undressed from each is really what it’s about: putting the pieces of our lives together and understanding.
Whatever we collectively choose shall take us to the place we need to be in our lives. Whether that means standing tall and filled with love and gratitude for this miracle of life, of being, or whether that means being brought to our knees, either way, individually we get the lesson, and collectively the world will get the lesson. We are at a crossroads in the experience of our collective consciousness and I believe the Earth, our home is vibrating in a way to show us that.
This is exciting because it means great change is upon us. Better in my opinion to err on the side of love and excitement, be filled with joy rather than fear and horror. Whatever our level consciousness is vibrating at, so will be our experience.
I don’t believe 2012 will be chaos. I don’t believe the “veil parting” will mean insanity, that the mass exodus from Plato’s Cave will mean doom. Man has been talking about the End of the World since it began. I think it’s because we’re in a rush to get to what’s next. Don’t worry, that will come. The Journey will take us.
I believe that we are destined to realize our choice between greatness and mediocrity. What is it that you shall choose? Why is it that you shall choose it? Whatever it is, be who you are, who only you can and are meant to be.
I see the “best” sitting next to the “worst” every day, in it all because I have allowed myself to know the Light and Dark, the Good and the Bad in myself, I have accepted my Humanity needs my Spirit and that my Spirit loves my Humanity. In not judging what unfolds, not resisting the natural Flow life gives, I am realizing more and more consciously what my Being already knows:
We are here to fly, we are not meant to crawl.
Thank you! THX! Hallelujah!
On Writing
So some strange things have been occurring. If Adya were here, she’d say: Nonsense, it’s magic Dear-uh. Well, Dr. Strange, the Master of the Mystic Arts in the Marvel Universe is fast becoming a favorite of mine in the comic book world and strange equals magic in my book.
I’ve taken to writing things out while at work and I can’t deduce whether of not I’m hearing what I hear because it’s just waiting for me to acknowledge it or it it’s making it up, but man, the people I’m writing about walk in. It’s cool, eerie, it’s WTF mindblowing.
Now, the important thing for me to remember is to script adventure, abundance, and good vibes because I’ve scripted alot of not so any of the above and Dude it kicked my ass in real life.
On Gratitude
I know a young man who drives a Lexus, doesn’t pay rent and at 20 just got his first job after going overseas for months, all paid for. And he’s still miserable. I don’t fault him but I have to point this situation out because I see the writing on that wall. I was given what I was when I was, not necessarily like that, but we are all given things in life in the form of experience, relationships, money, etc. and it’s like it’s an opportunity to show our gratitude for life and if we don’t big fraking
DOT DOT DOT!!!
I heard another man today complain about his order always being wrong wherever he goes. If we tune our consciousness to things going wrong, to the world not being right, to wanting to escape, our situations will mirror that. The life around us is what we believe. At some point we have to stop listening to the BS of duality, powerlessness, lack and take ownership of our experience and create what we would truly like to live out. We script the d@mn thing and that’s a beautiful gift. We’re on a see-saw right now in the world and I guarantee we will get the collective lesson. Err on the side of Love and Gratitude and not on the side of Fear and Disdain. Life’s beautiful as long as we are alive yo!
On Slanging Fortunes
I’m not a fortune teller. I’m Intuitive. Maybe one of my work roles is a Psychic and I can get views into the scope of what’s out there but the bottom line, we are very powerful creators and whether I give you a message from Spirit or not, it comes down to what you believe and how that comes to fruition. The point of which I believe all this stuff that happens, good, bad, otherwise because of what we’re attached to creating, to “knowing.” Know nothing is certain, go for Joy, and you’re good to go in your hood.
With That…
Peace and Magic to ya! Love, Aloha, High-Fives and for my boy “Doomsday” the grey clouds are not going to follow you this week ; ) Oh yeah, and I’m going to script lottery wins right about Tomorrow!!!
I’m running low on blog titles. The above seems to be appropriate and this blog is an open thought/free spirit experiment which I need to do because I’ve been doing so much writing lately with a point, with a purpose, and yeah, I need to just write and flow a bit.
Everything is coming together, the psychic business is starting to feel sustainable, my online writing is coming around and creating opportunities in great ways. I’m super stoked to be able to experience this after going through what felt like trudging through uncertainty. I feel like I’m about to reach a light at the end of a tunnel, start a new chapter in my life and for once, I’m not in a hurry, just enjoying each step as this journey unfolds and is starting to show me that sacrificing time, money, and “comfort” for finding out what I love, working at living that is truly a worthwhile experience. I felt it at times but I wasn’t really all in on the idea. Each day of my life, it shows me more and more that there is great truth in releasing fear to follow your bliss, listen to your Heart, to be who you are…
It’s weird, so simple, just let go and allow, and life just works out. I’m fortunate because I’ve gotten to see and explore many different “consciousnesses” from light to dark to paranoia to mad to bliss to whatever. My personal goal in life is to be the best being that I can be and by having had such a diverse life experience, an adventure of encountering so many people from all over the world in the many different roles I have played thus far, I’m grateful to find the beauty in it all and see how the system as a whole is not only necessary but it works just as it is. I had to change, not the world around me, but me.
I don’t know what’s going to happen next for the world but I’m enjoying my experience and I am truly grateful for this life.
“Live it, Love it, my Dear-uh! You are It!” ~ Adya
This isn’t a misadventure so much as it is recalling a number of times in my life where I had to sit back and lick my wounds, tuck my tail if you will…
I remember how back in the day, I hopped from job to job thinking this was it, I’d found it. And it wasn’t what I was looking for. Dejected, putting all my energy in time and time again only to be misled by own rush, my own zest to really live using the compass of logic, though logic is necessary, it is illogical to trump the Heart, something I’ve always known but it took experience to teach, to grill deep within.
I remember the same with my relationships, putting unrealistic pressure on the situation, watching the seems fly apart, watching the intensity and strength of love dissolve as I was not whole and as life set in, a life which is unavoidable so long as we are in the body and is the whole reason we are in the body in the first place. I resented my humanity. I felt so lost, bruised each time and no one could understand my intense passion for living, why self-mastery was so important. How could anyone? When I didn’t understand it myself…
My battle is no longer arduous. I don’t need to retreat. I do take time to myself but where it was once spent in inner turmoil, it is spent cultivating peace, being gentle with myself, and remembering the futility I engaged in for so long and the subsequent pain it caused. I find the “bigger” part of Soul coaching the “smaller” parts of my psyche, building their community and allowing each expression including my Inner Skeptic and Inner Douche Bag.
Today, each day, I watch as people are finding me, much as I once found people, sought out for confirmation, my own Five People You Meet in Heaven type of scenario playing out not after death but in the Kingdom here and now, each day, each conversation as I testify about the Spirit, as I offer not only proof but “show” my scars.
Scars I wear proudly and offer and share because it is through the healing of scars that we know our love, the true love deep within and no longer need to retreat, no longer have to tuck our tails and feel defeat because life is exactly as it should be in each and every moment, there is no need to resist it. There is no defeat, only growth. And that to me is beauty.
This year has been a blur. Burr!!! I’m pretty cold too. I get cold below 80 so this change in weather is cool and all but it’s a little too cool for my liking. There’s been so much going on recently, I don’t know where to start really. Anyhow, I just thought I would check in and tell the world: Chee huu to all of you!
Keep walking, even when we are brought to our knees, great views can be seen. And remember, it’s all an adventure. Sometimes comedic, other times dramatic, but nonetheless one big adventure…
The Dark steps aside to
Admire the Grim
As she Graces the Light
For Without the Grim
Adorning the Light
How could One not see
There is Beauty even
As She Sparkles
For only in the Dark
Can we see the Night
In All Her Truth
Experience Her Glory
And Honor Her Brother’s
Light as he makes his
March, Shining through
Each Day…
Free Yourself!!!
I encounter quite a few people who want to know what’s next, who’s next, how’s next and so on and so forth. I can be quite guilty of this as well. From my experience of doing this too much and the hard way I might add, focusing too much on next, and not on Now, leads to missed opportunities, dashed hopes, and the dreaded disillusionment… DUN DUN DUN!!!
That being said, it’s hard to not get caught up in it. In terms of desires, we get so addicted to the next that when we reach it/manifest it/whatever, it’s not enough, it’s not what we were looking for in the first place. And before you know it, a year passes, a relationship ends, and life is about to close with a whole lot of wishing and not much living. Life is called life because it’s about living and we don’t have to wait for next in order to feel alive. I don’t know the cure but I’m working hard at expanding my own presence and enjoying my experiences as they come. That’s all we really can do because life delivers what it does, when it does.
Like today, my today delivered a whole lot of unexpected. Today was crazy! I pulled a 12 hour shift at the tree, slanging fortunes, busting Tarot, doing what I do (which I prefer to view as spiritual consultations but I realize the entertainment part is the draw in the first place so I’m playing hype man here) yesterday. And while that was not today, I woke up at 5a yesterday to meditate, slept at 100a this morning and was up bright and early, back at’em because I had three job interviews today. Each was interesting as I went from Townside to the Airport back to Town. The first was beautiful and I feel like I “showed” well and connected but we’ll see what happens (because what happens is), the second was like on the spot we want you save for my availability, and the last was we want you but…
I say the but because in the middle of it, my interviewer had to take a phone call. 30 minutes goes by and I set my leave time for 3:40 and he comes back at 3:38, having conferenced it up with the different parts of me, the observer self mediating, and realizing that this was perhaps not the best fit and I should have trusted to cancel after the first went so well. But it didn’t strike 3:40 and he returned and there it occurred to me that I was there because not only was it where I was, but because he needed a space to talk in. Dude was stressed, wore it, breathed, expressed it, kind of blew up a little bit but I held the space, and he got a chance to breathe, got a chance to open up and connect, which it was apparent that it was something he needed.
Oftentimes, we have to go through things in order to get to where we are meant to be (which whether you believe in meant to be or not is where we end up anyway), and my day ended on a couple highs. I got to connect with an old soull in a young vessel finding her way up the Mountain and talk to a friend who’s striving to be a better man, one step at a time. And I saw my mirrors in it all, and was okay to gaze into each without judgment because I’m growing too.
Today was beautiful and though tomorrow will have it’s own set of things to do like editing A Call to Love, editing the 434 Tattoo website, writing another blog for that, possibly satisfying my ego and looking at jobs because I’m neurotic like that, and going for a walk, breathing, maybe reading a comic or two, today is cool and I’m content to remain in today, in the Now so long as it lasts.
Chee huu to all of you and enjoy the Journey. It’s taking you after all…
Today I got to be the Wink!
It was cool and as I write, it cracks me up some because in college I was “Wink” Walter to go with “The Professor” Ga”r”vin and “Kid Squid.” Gavin, Michelle, and I were sitting outside, presumably intoxicated and I started calling what was going on around us like it was a baseball game and that’s how the names came to be.
“Wink Walter here with The Professor and Kid Squid. We have Campus Security racing through the dorms…”
Anyway…
I was called in to cover today, so I went and took a couple of hours. It’s days like today when it’s clear to me I’m there for whoever walks through/I’m exactly where I am supposed to be at any given time (whether scheduled to be or not). My boss just told me yesterday she believes we are there for the people who come through and find each of us.
Recently, I’ve been able to sense when a reading is coming. Last night, I was closing up but heard “sit down” so I didn’t shut off the lights. There were two women, about 15-20 feet away, so I went and sat back down, and sure enough they came in. The other day, I was reading a book and all of a sudden, stopped and looked up. I saw someone in the crosswalk and knew he was coming in. I couldn’t make out who it was from that distance but as he approached, it was a friend who used to work in the Market, Jerome.
Today, same kind of deal, I just looked up all of a sudden and saw two women off to the side. One of them came over and asked about the readings and we talked briefly and I told her to sit. She came in and I did the reading and it was strange for me. I don’t openly talk about God in the Tree unless it comes up. I realize we live in a World that is what it is so I respect different beliefs. Yet in this woman’s reading, I clearly felt she was seeking God and had been looking for confirmation. I told her what I heard, what I saw, and her eyes teared.
It was very powerful for me because when I look back at my life, so often did I feel like God was there but I couldn’t always hear or see God and struggled because I still felt alone. Yet somehow, some way, someone came along, or something happened that gave me reassurance, and at times they felt like winks.
So today was a cool experience and it felt good to give that back to another.
Mahalo ke Akua (THX be to God)!!!
The following riddle came to me out of the blue and I kept hearing it. I’ve been processing it ever since over the course of the last 48 hours:
The “I” of the Need-El
The “I” of the Storm
All is One
Where Time is Formed
It might not be a riddle. It could be just a poem. Either way, I believe the symbolism to be about duality and oneness. What do you think?
