So I thought I’d write a blog.

Enlightenment is attainable.  If all it is recognition of a single moment of clarity then it is something each person has experienced at some point.  It’s that time when you’re watching a sunset and the mind is blank for a moment.  It’s that satisfaction of going deeper in a yoga pose.  It’s simply presence.

As for the other stuff, well I can only speak on my experience.  I don’t know if all people have visions and I realize the insanity of following and honoring dreams and see how that might not work for all people.  Whatever comes along in our paths that allow us to be in the Here and Now, to know Presence, then that’s all that matters I suppose.

There are many sacred paths to that place.  Sri Ramakrishna was an Indian mystic who tried Hinduism, Christianity, and Islam.  He found that they all led to God.  In my experience of Buddhist meditation groups and prayer in a Catholic church, as well as alone in my travels across the country and back home, I experienced my own version of that.

I believe the Christ and Buddha Consciousness are one in the same and both are viable ways to connect with God.  If we were to look at it as energy, then when each historical figure hit that place, that energy is still available for anyone who wishes to connect in such a way.

The reason my third eye is buzzing though is this: nothing matters because separation is but a veil and all of that is already there, God Consciousness, the Here and Now, Presence, etc.  Everything is inside and what is outside is merely just more of what’s inside. That thing that pisses me off in the dude in line in front of me is my own shadow.  That thing about that cute kid that is so energetic is the same thing inside of me.

It’s a simple concept yet the ego is the veil, perhaps afraid of losing it’s sense of individuality.  I don’t know because I haven’t lost mine nor do I know if I ever will.

I’m pretty stoked on the experiences of Presence that I do have and finding a way to interact spiritually with life that fills me and works for me.  I guess that’s all that matters and if I ever attain permanent enlightening in this life or a million more to come oh well, I’ll deal with that when I am aware fully of living in the Here and Now.

Years ago, I always thought happiness was career, relationship, health, etc.  While those are all great and I’ve had some wonderful experiences, it’s only in truly allowing myself to be the spiritual person that I am, that I have been able to sustain of a consistent level of calm and peacefulness, something I never had when focusing on all of those things.  Russel Simmons calls it the “Do You” law of success.

I’m not Jesus or Buddha mind you, but I feel pretty wonderful most times these days. I used to feel so dead inside.  Even some of my best memories were followed by that dead feeling.  It was like the loves, the going out to do stuff, the jobs, the whatever filled the void for just a moment, was only an escape.

I think it has to do with energy and what I send out.  It’s like there’s a vibration to operate from.  In applying the “Doing You” law, I’m able to be at peace because that’s who I am and I am no longer afraid of that.

I now notice when my vibration is high because the people I encounter always seem to smile (which could be because I’m smiling a great deal more I’m told) and things seem to work out divinely. Like, I just follow my inner compass and it leads me to the places, the people, and the so on that add to the peace.

Today my inner Voice told me to speak with a man sitting next to me.  I breathed a slight sigh of relief in that alot of times it tells me to talk to women and my ego kind of freaks out at those times.  I love women and have met some interesting people in general but in the past was not fond of approaching random people I didn’t know and certainly didn’t want to give off the creeper vibe.

I’ve realized, it’s those negative, fear based thoughts that give off those vibes in the first place.  On an energetic level, we can feel when we aren’t loved, when people aren’t present, when people have ill-intentions.  And, you know what, we never know how we impact others because who knows what anyone else is thinking.

I noticed when I take a deep breath and embody presence, when I allow my peace to reside, it’s as though I send a loving energy and the experience unfolds organically, without planning, without whatever.

I was with my guide, Adya, the other day and we saw a young woman who my inner Voice said to tell her she was a hard worker.  I’d notice how hard she worked and I can value that.  I’ve worked in many jobs where people just did enough to not get fired and I’d bust ass so we could finish early or whatever.  So I told this woman that.  Adya sees her and starts talking to her.  She kind of tripped out until she saw me and said that made her day because she felt like nobody noticed.

My ego started to kick the story of “Oh shit.  This is embarrassing.” but it was weird because I didn’t feel the fear I’d have felt in the past.  And then she said she was stoked at that and shoot, it worked out in its own weird way.

So anyway, I start talking to this guy and he was a riot, quite facetious and playful.  I opted for “I’m thinking career change right now and just wondering what people do?” instead of my usual “excuse me, I’m a spiritual person and well, something tells me to talk with you.”

We had a fascinating conversation which is going into the book that I am writing but here is the pearl I’d like to post.  He said when it comes to love and being loving that it’s easy to love a $20 bill more than a penny.  The same goes for people he said.

“While the $20 bills are great and easy to love, there are far more pennies and I think God would want us to love them just as much.”

It was an interesting conversation and I must say Mahalo nui to you Rob.  Good luck making synthetic body parts in your basement.  Wink.

Yeah, this was blog was total randomness but like MC Yogi said: Give your love away and it comes back another day.

Shoots.

I’ve filled two and half journals in the last three months. Not to mention all the stuff/crap/wisdom that comes pouring out on this site. I’ve given up to the journey and realizing that it is taking me.

I realized today that I answered that statement that I set out when I was 26.5 years old. I remember quite clearly saying: “I’m going to live my dream, whatever that is.” More of a question at the time really.

In the last few years, I’ve gone from overweight and eczema riddled to in good shape with smooth skin. That’s just the physical, my mental, emotional, spiritual, the holistic being is getting better, stronger each day.

I can’t say it’s the acceleration of the writing that’s doing it. It is a large part of it and I see now that I am in the process of actualizing a few things that I’ve always wanted to do.

1. Home base in Hawaii, travel all-over. Took a seven week “metaphorical 40 days in the desert” trip earlier with an 11 day closing that up to come within a month.

2. Be a writer. I’ve written the basis of my first book and am now in the editing/adding whatever else happens from now until the end of those 11 days.

3. I have an excitingly crazy life in which I meet light-filled people each and every day.

4. I’m actually helping people by being me, which is this spiritually mad person (or madly spiritual person, whatever, tee hee).

Regardless of 1 and 2, I have to say numbers 3 and 4 is the most delicious of all. I see how 1, helped to pry open and let out what’s in the heart, 2 is putting it all together, and well 3, three is just the place to Be or of Being.  From there, it makes 4 actually work.  A woman told me yesterday, “I am so glad that I met you.” all because I was “listening” to the message and it said to go to Cuba.  The conversation went a little further but yeah, long story short, Number 3 allowed 4.

Thank you to each and every person who has entered and exited my life. From the little girl who melted my heart with love at 19 when I was mad at the world, to the woman who broke my heart wide open earlier this year, to every single entity out there.

I’m so in love with this life.  I feel so much love for this experience.  There will be challenges, the dark is out there but damn if I don’t enjoy the light, and if I sure do enjoy shining light!

Yesterday was my Grandfather’ s birthday.  He’d have been 88.  A number of people kept saying the name Walter (he was the one to bring our family name to Hawaii) , so in honor of him I got some chocolate.  I was looking for something and I grabbed a dark chocolate with raspberries b/c it came with a poem.  And it said to share the poem with people you love.

So Dear Reader I share with you the poem from chocolate. And here’s to you Old Buddy, I’m liking this chocolate!

The First Day by Christina Rosetti

I wish I could remember the first day,

First hour, first moment of your meeting me;

If bright or dim the season, it might be

Summer or winter for aught I can say.

So unrecorded did it slip away,

So blind was I to see and to foresee,

So dull to mark the budding of my tree

That would not blossom yet for many a May.

If only I could recollect it!  Such

A day of days! I let it come and go

As traceless as a thaw of bygone snow.

It seemed to mean so little, meant so much!

If only now I could recall that touch,

First touch of hand in hand!  Did one but know!